Showing posts with label OCD. Show all posts
Showing posts with label OCD. Show all posts

Saturday, December 18, 2010

Never would have thought

It has been two years since I graduated with my Bachelors degree. Two years since I wrote my last essay and all throughout school I HATED writing. I was always the person who would wait to the last minute to write an essay. That meant at the end of the semester I would spend many nights awake typing out my essays that were due the next day, as many college students do. I remember during my sophomore year I had an extension on one of my papers and one of my friends sat in the room with me to help me stay focused and finish the essay, talk about a good friend! In one of my classes we were required to write a one page essay; many times I would forget about them until thirty minutes before the class started.  Yes, I would finish them in twenty minutes allowing me ten minutes to get to class.

I was also never a great writer and grammar always killed me. I'm more of the chemistry/math type than the reading/writing type. So it boggles my mind now that I am actually enjoying writing these blogs. I guess I have always been that way when it came to school work. I always did very well in school but I hated reading assignments and struggled with finishing them. However if I pick up a book I choose to read I will finish it in a day or two.

I think this is something I have come to accept with myself. I have always disliked being told to do something whether it is reading, writing, or yes even cleaning. When I choose to complete tasks I become obsessive compulsive about their perfection. My husband will make fun of me when I make the bed because I do not like to have wrinkles in the sheets and once the bed is made I hate it when he sits on it because it messes up the the comforter. I have told him in the past not to sit on the bed after it has been made. Call me crazy, I know!

This morning however I couldn't wait to sit at my computer and start writing. I was not sure what I wanted to write but I knew I wanted to write. I still do not know what the main topic of this blog is and I have a feeling I may do a bit of wandering until I can find a topic I can sit down and continue to write about on a daily basis. There are many blogs out there for and about military life so I know I do not want to head down that road since they usually become repetitive. I'm sure God will tell me eventually what to write about but until then I will continue to try out different paths and enjoy doing something I never would have thought I would like!